I was going through some old files today and found a conversation I had with a guy I dated a little more than a year ago. I was a little skeptical on why a guy would want to be with a girl like me. Yes, I had had a not so good previous experience with another guy that said one thing and then acted otherwise. Also, this new guy had broken up with a long time girlfriend just three months before. I didn’t want to be the rebound girl or the back up plan. Anyways… without me even asking why he liked me he just said: “You couldn’t possibly be the rebound girl, you don’t fit the profile. I’ll tell you why I like you. You’re different, you’re smart, you can speak a lot languages, you like helping people, you’re real. And then the looks, I think you’re really pretty and I enjoy watching you smile.” I met him in my first year of college and you need to know that I don’t care how I look for school, I just wear whatever I find first, and he added: “I like your jeans and t-shirt and your big sweatshirt.”

We dated for a couple of months and at the end I turned out to be, as a matter of fact, the back up plan. They got back together shortly after we broke up (but that’s another story). At that moment that was exactly what I needed to hear. I had forgotten all about it, until today that I found it. Maybe he was not the guy I was supposed to end up with, maybe our time together wasn’t trascendental or meaningful at all. But maybe he didn’t lie about that, maybe the reasons he listed were real. And hopefully there will be another guy that will notice all that (and more) about me. And maybe next time will be the real thing.